stuff it up why dont you

/meant to be private. whoops. now locked private/

2needles2many Oct 04, 2010 20:42

i am over this. over it over it over it over it. if i have to look at another already opened jar in the cupboard or have to get in the shower with a bag over my hand so i dont get the stupid bandages wet, or if i have to spend half an hour wrapping my fingers together so that the ache rattles down to a double edged sword on either side of my palm i ( Read more... )

bloody hell, haha haha haha... not funny, what the hell am i doing?, stresssssed out, stuff it up why dont you, running away, how do i say what can't be said?, i'd give you the finger but- you know, home or something like it, london, live my life as its meant, i fucking hate phonecalls, not having fun, a tag about a boy, i dont know, say it with me, i'm fucked, so help me, stop overthinking you twat, shuddup sam, i blame you, stupid is as stupid does, art, james, stuff, jess, what are you about?, ouch, please dont speak, back when, over it now, argh, out of my mind, s/motherd, time for so many other things

hi

2needles2many Sep 28, 2010 18:58

so. been a while since i've been around to update this thing, but i've been informed if i dont then im in trouble, so here i am. sorry to everyone i've not repliec to or picked up to. things have been messy around my headspace of late and i needed to get away. thr short of it entails i went back home to where i grew up as i needed the break. couldn ( Read more... )

still here, ebola, regrets, what i never said, stuff it up why dont you, running away, tlc stands for...?, what the fuck?, how do i say what can't be said?, freak out, insanity, what is it with you and death machines?, home or something like it, peter, a tag about a boy, man enough to admit i'm scared, work, bernie, stop overthinking you twat, ridiculous underplanning, little bear, alton, uncle sammy, what are you about?, out of business, fear, cafe, luck or lack of it, wish i knew, fuck, back when, out of my mind, gonna get your head smashed in, s/motherd, time for so many other things, answer the phone

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2needles2many Aug 01, 2010 19:50

I thought it would be easy to forget it, to leave it. I never cease to forget how stupid I am, how much i overestimate myself. I've been thinking far too much since I fucked up. I’ve been thinking far too much since forever really. The difference is my own action. I surround myself with people who have their lovers, who have their match and i can ( Read more... )

ha affection, twat, pointless, dont say a word, wish i knew, a tag about a boy, alone, what i never said, stuff it up why dont you, how do i say what can't be said?

[screened to Pete + Ebola]

2needles2many Jul 20, 2010 04:43

And yesterdays first prize for epic twattery goes to Samson.

I'm sorry.

Really, I am.

bloody hell, shuddup sam, twat, pointless, sorry, stop it, alone, regrets, stuff it up why dont you, gonna get your head smashed in, how do i say what can't be said?

The price of self worth

2needles2many Jul 19, 2010 14:43

Two bottles of vodka: £42.
Three bottles of cola: £13
One broken glass: £3
Getting up at 5am for work the next day: priceless.

apparantly i've always been fairly good at seeing things for what they really are. so i've been told.
what a way to go blind, eh?

stop overthinking you twat, bernie, gonna be sick, bloody hell, shuddup sam, what the hell am i doing?, out with the old, regrets, stuff it up why dont you, running away, booze = water of the gods, how do i say what can't be said?, what the hell just happened?, cafe, ha affection, twat, dont say a word, such an idea is a good one, ok not lies, a tag about a boy, ahhh life in general, back when, sleeeeep, out of my mind, work

[screened from James]broken record

2needles2many Jul 11, 2010 01:15

It's funny, I guess today was payback for not telling him sooner. But for all of it, i can't help but feel bad. He took me to meet his grandmother, just a sweet old lady at the airport and one look at her was enough to send me running. I dont know what's wrong with me these days. There's an itch i can't scratch and i feel like i'm tearing half the ( Read more... )

stop overthinking you twat, shuddup sam, what the hell am i doing?, stresssssed out, regrets, its getting to me, stuff it up why dont you, what are you about?, how do i say what can't be said?, start running, dont say a word, it's all good strangely, nutcase nanna, a tag about a boy, man enough to admit i'm scared, forever scared, back when, alone, sleeeeep, getting back on track, out of my mind

Are you over this? I am.

2needles2many Nov 04, 2009 18:11

you know those days where nothing goes right, where you manage to hit yourself with any large object within range. Where you break almost anything you touch and your brain wont work resulting in many stupid things happening or said. Those days where you really wish that you didn't get out of bed at all, and almost nothing that happens can outshine ( Read more... )

still here, waste of time, pete, what the hell am i doing?, mel, stop it, alone, back when, fuck, stuff it up why dont you, stitch